RIZZOLI & ISLES

I tried to tell you

Blakeigh Hollis

Title: I tried to tell you

Author: BlakeighHollis

Fandom: Rizzoli & Isles

Pairing: Jane/Maura

Rating: PG

Summary: Jane’s attempt to tell Maura how she feels

Disclaimer: i own known accept that random guy lol

so this is my first fan fic so pls be gentle but criticism and ideas are welcome :D

I tried to tell you

Blakeigh Hollis

Vacuuming. It was the only way she could get the thoughts out of her head. She couldn’t believe it. Wouldn’t believe it. She had the hots for Maura. Maura– her best friend, her partner, the Chief Medical Examiner for Christ sake! The woman who flirts over a dead body– with guys! Who has a “dead” refrigerator and puts food in it! Jane sighed. There was no use fighting herself. She knew without a doubt that everything she was describing was exactly why she fell in love with Maura in the first place.

“I am in love with Maura Isles” She said it aloud. Even hearing it was surreal. She stopped vacuuming and sat on the couch, repeating the line dozens of times hoping it would make more sense. Of course, being as though she was Jane Rizzoli, it didn’t. She would have to see what time made of it. Sitting on her couch Jane realized that yes she did love Maura and she would try her hardest to make sure Maura, eventually, felt the same way.

Jane burst into the morgue eager and anxious to talk to Maura. But the doc wasn’t there. She looked around confused because Maura was always in her office.

“Maura?” she called. No one answered. She shrugged and turned to leave when Maura came through the door. Backwards. With some guy. And she was kissing him. And giggling. Maura didn’t giggle. Rage. That’s what Jane felt. Pure rage. She couldn’t believe Maura. Not only did she have a boyfriend and didn’t tell her but she had a boyfriend in her office when Jane was there to confess everything to her. Jane clenched and unclenched her fist. They still hadn’t noticed her. Jane knew she should leave. Move. Make some type of noise to get their attention. To announce her presence but she couldn’t move. They finally came up for air and he looked up.

“Uh” cleared his throat, “sorry hi, didn’t see you there” he smiled.

Maura spun around “Jane! Uh, what– what are you doing here?”

“Yea, you were too busy with your tongue down her throat” Jane snapped at him. She wouldn’t look at Maura. Couldn’t bring herself to look at her. She was so hurt and disgusted. Disgusted with herself for believing, actually thinking she would come here and tell Maura. That Maura would feel the same way. That they would have a life together. That she, Jane Rizzoli, was actually the marriageable type. This was as clear a sign ever that she was not marriage material. And, most importantly, Maura was straight and had no interest in Jane whatsoever.

Maura stared at Jane’s face. Jane never ignored her. She could see there was a battle waging in her friend. She could see the anger coiled like a snake ready to strike, right beneath the surface of Jane. She turned to her companion “Umm this isn’t a good time. I’ll see you later”

“Sure” he looked at Jane and smiled weakly “Nice to meet you” and left.

Maura turned to Jane. She looked her friend up and down. She didn’t want to make any sudden movements, scared Jane might snap.

“Who the hell was he?” Jane barked barley controlling her anger.

How could Maura do this? Jane was so confused and so hurt. She wanted to break something. She knew she was scaring Maura. She knew Maura was probably standing there like stone because she didn’t want to set her off but she didn’t care.

“He was just a friend” Maura said.

“Just a friend?!” Jane yelled. She began to pace back and forth. “Friends don’t kiss friends like that. Friends don’t shove tongues down other friends’ throats.” She stopped pacing to turn to Maura “He is definitely NOT just a friend.”

Maura sighed and moved to sit in front of her computer. She sat down in the chair and swiveled around to face Jane. She didn’t know how to handle Jane’s sudden outbursts. She didn’t know how to handle outbursts in general. She didn’t know how to handle people in general! But for Jane she would try. She felt that somehow Jane felt offended. Betrayed and it hurt Maura to know she was the one who hurt Jane. She didn’t know how to make it right. She just knew that she wanted to.

“I mean how–how could you bring him here! Here! Where we work, where you examine dead bodies –“Jane could’ve have gone on and on. Said anything to cover up the hurt she was feeling inside but Maura interrupted.

“What did I do wrong?” the blonde looked genuinely hurt, “Am I not allowed to be happy?”

Jane sighed but the anger was still there. “Yes”

“Then why are you so upset about my romantic affiliations?”

Jane couldn’t bring herself to answer that question out loud. Why? Because I’m in love with you that’s why! Because the only person who should be holding you, caressing you, kissing you, and running their fingers through that blonde hair is me! Because no one else deserves you but me! Because no one else can appreciate you and love you like I can.

“Because Maura, you can’t have sex with your romantic affiliation in a morgue!”

Maura looked lost “Who said I would be engaging in sexual intercourse here? We were going to go back to my place.”

Jane was silent. Then she shook her head. Maura had no idea the havoc she was causing between Jane’s heart and head. Jane’s heart was telling her to show Maura. To tell Maura but Jane’s head was urging, begging her to leave. To walk out. To walk away from what will never be. Then the worst happened. She started to cry. Damn Maura. Damn her heart. Damn the tears falling down her face.

Maura jumped up and took a step toward Jane, reaching for Jane’s arm but Jane stepped out of reach. Maura was shocked. Jane never pulled away from her. She let her hand drop to her side, head hung in shame.

“Jane, I’m so sorry. Please tell me what I can do?” Maura whispered.

So many thoughts came to Jane’s head. Stop dating that loser and date me. Stop wasting your time with those idiots and realize that I’m the only one for you. Hug me. Hold me. Love me like I love you. But Jane voiced none of them. Jane just stared at Maura. Could she have felt even worse? She couldn’t bring herself to finish the conversation. She had to get out that morgue. Away from Maura. She had no more fight in her and she couldn’t bring herself to argue. Seeing Maura with someone – someone else.

Maura felt so helpless. Seeing her friend standing there crying. She had no idea what to do!

“Tell me how to make it right” Maura begged.

Jane sniffled “Make it right? There is nothing you can do to make it right Maura. It’s just a big misunderstanding on my part. I’m the one who should be sorry.” And with that Jane walked out.

* * * * *

Jane walked back into her apartment, collapsed on the couch. All her tears came and went. She decided to keep away from Maura for awhile. Best to keep her distance and throw herself into work. Eventually her heart would heal. Eventually, right?

Part 2

Work. Maura threw herself into working. Her only companions were the dead bodies on her table. Jane hadn’t stopped by in 2 weeks and whenever Maura tried to call or go see her, Jane would avoid her. Instead of Jane coming down to collect evidence, Frost came. Instead of Jane going out with her after work, she went alone. After this long, Maura decided she couldn’t wait anymore. She needed to talk to Jane. Maura had recently began to feel something for Jane. Something more than just friendship. She choose to ignore it being as though she had no idea what it was. But in these past few weeks those feelings has come back stronger than ever because of Jane’s absence. She couldn’t take it anymore. She missed the sarcastic comments; she missed the wit, the strength, the sense of security the detective brought to her life. She missed Jane and she would do whatever it took to get Jane back.

* * * * *

Maura knocked on Jane’s door. She was nervous and doubted Jane wanted to see her at all but she had to try. Maura knocked again. Still no answer. She didn’t even hear Jane’s footsteps or Joe Friday’s pitter patter. Maura sighed. Jane must not be home. She turned to leave when she heard barking followed by Jane’s voice coming up the steps.

“Yea, good dog. Great jog. Man do I feel loose and relaxed. I need a –“ Jane stopped in mid sentence. Maura, her Maura was standing in front of her door. God she looks hot.

Neither said anything and the silence was deafening to Maura’s ears. Maura started to speak but closed her mouth. Everything she wanted to say to Jane, everything she had thought to say as frozen on her tongue. Jane spoke first.

“What are you doing here?” Jane asked

Maura swallowed “I wanted – I need to talk to you.” Maura’s eyes pleaded with Jane “I need to understand why you’re so upset with me. What did I do so bad that you are avoiding me?!” Maura’s voice raised a pitch. Her eyes watered. She just didn’t get it. She had never felt this before. Such confusion. Such pain. Jane’s absence left a huge hole in her life that she was scrambling to fill and she didn’t know how.

Jane didn’t respond. She walked up to the door. Maura stepped aside so Jane could get to it. Jane unlocked her door and entered her home, heading straight for a drink. She didn’t invite Maura in, leaving her standing on the other side of the door. Maura took that as a sign to leave. The tears fell as she turned to leave, surprising her as much as Jane’s silence. Jane. Who was never silent, who always spoke her opinion. Jane’s rejection was like a slap in the face. Before Maura could take more than a step to leave, a wave of pain like she had never felt before swept over her and she collapsed to the floor sobbing. Her sobs were wrenched from her body by some unknown force and she couldn’t stop it.

She didn’t know how long she stayed on the floor sobbing. She heard someone calling her name but her pain was too loud to hear anything else. She felt arms surround her and lift her up but she was too numb to care. She felt herself being placed on someone’s lap but her mind was too weak to figure out who was holding her. After awhile her sobs slowly began to ebb. Her breathing stopped hitching and began to even out. She had managed to close her eyes during her breakdown and now opened them. She was in Jane’s apartment. More precisely, in Jane’s lap. With Jane, kissing her forehead and murmuring sweet words in her ear. Then Jane kissed eyes closed. Then her nose. Then a cheek, and finally she felt the soft press of Jane’s lips against hers. Maura exhaled a sigh of relief. This is what she had been waiting for. The kiss was gentle but Maura’s reaction wasn’t. Jane’s tongue traced her bottom lip from left to right, driving Maura crazy. Maura moaned, pressed herself closer to Jane, and tangled her fingers in Jane’s hair. Jane’s hand slid up her body and curled in Maura’s hair. Maura gasped when she felt Jane’s tongue probing, urging her to open her mouth. Maura complied and Jane groaned as she began the slow exploration of Maura’s mouth. Maura didn’t know how long the kiss lasted but she knew she never wanted it to end but it did. Jane bit Maura’s lip and sent a shudder through the both of them. Slowly Jane pulled away from Maura and broke away from the kiss.

Neither of them spoke. If Maura thought she couldn’t breathe before, nothing compared to the after affects of Jane’s kiss. Simply put, Jane had taken her breath away. Maura looked up in Jane’s eyes. Everything about that kiss seemed right. It then clicked in Maura’s head why Jane was so upset. She cursed herself. How could she be so stupid? She stared up into Jane’s face and saw everything she ever searched for. Now all that was left was to tell Jane how she felt.

Jane stared down into Maura’s eyes. She couldn’t believe she just kissed Maura. Jane opened her mouth to speak but Maura stopped her.

“Don’t apologize Jane, it’ll ruin the moment.” Maura smiled and moved to stand up in front of Jane. “I understand now” she said with her back to Jane.

Jane stood up and went to retrieve the drink she left on the counter. She downed the drink and got herself another before speaking.

“You understand what Maura?” She asked. Afraid she knew the answer. Afraid of the conclusions Maura had come to.

Maura walked over to Jane but stopped before she reached her. “I understand why you were so upset.”

Jane stared at Maura. The blonde looked absolutely gorgeous even with the puffy, red eyes and swollen lips. Swollen from her kiss. Jane’s body trembled. She loved the feel of Maura’s body on her own. Maura’s lips on her own. The kiss, that kiss was the best kiss she had ever given and received. Despite Maura’s na&iuml;vet&eacute; the blonde had a lot of passion. Passion Jane wanted to be the only one to strip Maura’s release of.

Jane put the bottle down on the counter. She stared at the blonde. She didn’t want to talk. She wanted to press herself against Maura and lose herself in the blonde. She wanted to pin Maura down and ravish her, mark her for the world to know that Maura Isles belonged to Jane Rizzoli.

“Jane there is something I’ve been meaning to tell you.” Maura clamped her hands together. She looked up at Jane. She could see the brunette staring at her but Jane wasn’t looking into Maura’s eyes. She was looking at Maura’s body.

“Jane?”

Jane’s eyes snapped up. She really didn’t feel like talking. Talking meant words. Jane wanted sounds. She cleared her throat.

“Look Maura,” she began, “Its ok. We don’t have to talk about what happened. It was–“

“I’m in love with you Jane” Maura blurted

The silence was heavy in the air. Before either one of them could react, Jane’s phone rang. She answered it while staring at Maura.

“Rizzoli”

Part 3

Jane burst into the morgue “Dammit Maura we need to talk”

Maura glanced up from her computer. She sighed inwardly. She wasn’t ready for this talk. She didn’t know what to say to Jane. Not now. Not ever. After that night in Jane’s apartment she wasn’t so sure the brunette cared for her that much. Jane had come in to visit her but it was always business. Before they would joke around and tease each other as Maura told her findings. Lately, Jane had lost all trace of humor and talked to Maura as if she was interrogating her. This she could not take anymore and had given up on ever resolving the matter of “them”. She leaned back in her chair and turned to face Jane ready for the rejection and willing to put it behind her.

“What are you doing here? We haven’t been called in for another case have we?” she asked knowing they hadn’t.

“No, Maura we haven’t, otherwise I would be there and not here” Jane stated

Maura cocked her head “So why are you here then? I didn’t text you did I?”

Jane threw her hands up in defeat “That’s the problem!” she yelled. Jane began to pace the morgue.

Maura let it continue for a few then started laughing “Jane, do you know how ridiculous you look right now? You’re acting as if you have Schizophrenia”

Jane stopped pacing and stared at Maura. “Are you kidding me? What about this situation is funny to you”

“What situation are you referring to exactly?”

“What situation? The kiss. The confession. Us. “ Jane said, “Shall I continue?”

Maura shook her head “There is no situation Jane. Certainly, not one to be discussed here. The kiss was a mistake. The confession is just that, a confession. And the only “us” there is, is Maura Isles M.E and Detective Jane Rizzoli”

Maura couldn’t believe those words just came out of her mouth. She wanted to take them back. Burn them. Destroy them. Erase them from her memory. But she knew she couldn’t. She knew in the long run she would get hurt and she wasn’t ready for that. Wasn’t strong enough for that. Not so soon. She got up out of her chair and walked into her office hoping Jane would take the hint and leave. But of course, she didn’t. Jane followed her into the office. When Maura looked up Jane was standing in the doorway.

“Come have a drink with me, Maura. We need to talk about this.”

Maura looked at Jane. “I can’t” she whispered, too tired to argue. Maura gestured to the papers on her desk. “I have a lot of work to do.”

Jane scowled. “What’s more important, Maura”, she asked, “Us or you work?”

The look Maura gave her was really unexpected. Jane never thought Maura was capable of such a look. This look Jane had always seen on the face of angry people. The look your mom gave you when you ate a cookie and ruined your dinner after she told you a billion times not too. That death glare she received when locking people up.

Maura sighed. “Fine, Jane. Meet me there in 30 min”

Jane nodded “Ok. Thanks” and left.

* * * * *

Jane quickly drove to the bar, cursing under her breath. She was late, damn Korsack for teasing her.

She quickly parked the car and ran inside the bar, hoping and praying Maura was still there. She opened the door and looked around. She didn’t see Maura anywhere. The bartender walked up to her.

“Jane, Maura left this for you” He handed her a piece of paper. Neatly folded up.

“She left?” Jane asked. The bartender nodded. Jane sighed and turned and left the bar. She walked back to her car. “Dammit!” she yelled to the night. She opened the door and got in her car. Slowly she unfolded the paper.

Jane,

I don’t understand what happened to us. You refuse to be around me and I don’t know what to do anymore. That’s not normal for me. I’m a scientist; I should always know what to do. You asked me what was more important, us or the job. For me it was us Jane but it will always be the job for you. You made me so mad when you asked me that but you were the one who answered the phone. I can’t function without a concrete schedule. A routine. You were my routine. Then you stopped visiting me. I tried to be strong Jane, but the truth is I’m not. You are the strong one. I am Maura, Queen of the Dead and all that goes with that title. You accept me as a friend Jane but not as a lover. I accept you in all ways and it hurts that you can’t do the same for me. I thought that was what a friend was supposed to do. I guess we were never really friends. I have some vacation time that I’m going to take. Take care of yourself Jane. There will be a sub in my place in the morgue. I don’t know when I’m coming back but at least you’ll have a M.E.

Jane drove like a bat outta hell, straight to Maura’s house. Maura was not leaving. Not if she could help it.

* * * * *

Maura packed as fast as she could. She knew if Jane was coming, it would be to stop her. She didn’t want that. She wanted to get away, at least for awhile. She had found a last minute sitter for Bass and apologized for leaving so fast. She was so busy packing she didn’t hear the sound of her door being kicked in. She dismissed the thought, assuming it was Bass walking into things again. She didn’t hear her bedroom door open slightly. And she didn’t see him until she turned..and screamed. She struggled but it didn’t work. She tried to fight him off (she was sure it was a he) but he was too strong. So she did the next best thing, she attempted to destroy her house. If Jane came and noticed the mess, then she would immediately know something was wrong. He dragged Maura out of her bedroom and out her front door, at the same time she was swinging her arms wildly hitting any and everything.

Parked outside was a black van. Maura felt herself lifted and thrown in to the van. She tried to get up, almost made it out the open door, but before she could someone grabbed her hair and yanked it. She fell backwards and a hand clamped over her mouth and nose. She felt herself slipping away. Her last coherent thought was “Jane, please find me”

Part 4

Jane pulled up into Maura’s driveway. She looked around. Maura’s car was gone. Jane shook her head in disbelief. There was no way Maura left. Jane began to walk up to Maura’s door when she froze in her tracks. Maura’s door was completely broken in half. “Maura?” Jane called out. She walked in, stepping over the door as she went. Jane felt an uneasy feeling in her stomach. She didn’t hear Bass moving around. Jane checked the kitchen first. Her heart crumbled as she took in the scene. Bass was lying in a pool of blood. She ran to him and felt along his stomach.

“What the hell am I looking for?” Jane said aloud. Then she felt it. Bass moved. He lifted his head, looked at her, then laid it back down.

“No Bass, don’t die on me. Maura would kill me if I let you.” She called it in.

She moved down the hallway to where Maura’s bedroom was located. At the entrance she saw the mess. Her heart stopped. The hallway leading to Maura’s room was total catastrophe. “ Maura!” Jane yelled. She ran down the hallway, stopping at the door, preparing herself for what she might see. The first thing Jane noticed was that Maura was nowhere in the room. She checked the bathroom –empty. She checked the closet– empty too. She panicked. Maura wasn’t here.

“Jane” she heard Korsak yell, “Jane where are you?”

She felt the tears run down her cheeks. Maura wasn’t here. “In her room!” she replied.

Seconds later he came running in with Frost on his heels. He looked at Jane. He had never seen her so angry and hurt. Jane started to pace back and forth. He could see the wheels turning in her head. She stopped and turned “Is Hoyt still in jail?”

Korsak nodded. “I checked on the way over here.”

Jane looked defeated. “Then who could’ve done this”

No one had an answer.

* * * * *

Maura came to with a start her heart pounding in her ears. She didn’t know where she was or what happened after she blacked out. She tried to shift but found that she couldn’t move. She felt something binding her wrist and ankles to whatever surface she was on. And most importantly, she felt air. On every part of her body. She was naked. She opened her eyes and looked down at herself. She was naked.

“Finally, I have been waiting patiently” She turned her head to the voice as a figure walked out the shadows. A scream bubbled in her throat but froze as she realized who he was. She shut her eyes and turned her head away. Garrett. Of all people. He ripped the tape off her mouth.

He sighed.

“Well Maura, I was really hoping that it wouldn’t have to come to this.”

Her voice trembled.” When did you get out?”

He ran his finger over her lips, smiling. “Awhile ago. I have been dreaming of you, Maura. Ever since you betrayed me.”

She swallowed. “ I never betrayed you Garret”

He didn’t respond. He slid his hand in her hair and tightened it, pulling on Maura’s scalp. Maura whimpered and tears sprang to her eyes.

“I loved you Maura. And I still do” He pressed his lips to hers. Rubbing his tongue over her bottom lip. “I’ll show you” he whispered. He yanked her neck to the side and sunk his teeth in her neck. Hard enough to draw blood. Maura screamed. When he pulled back, he was laughing. With her blood smeared all over his lips.

“Mmm I remember you loved when I bit you. “ He slid his hand out of her hair and pushed a button next to her head. The table she was on slowly started to rise until she was completely upright, hanging by her wrist and bound by her ankles.

Her neck was throbbing “Why are you doing this to me, Garrett?” she gasped through the pain.

“Because Maura, you have forgotten where you came from and I want to remind you. So for the nest few days I will”

She struggled to control her breathing “What are you going to do to me?”

He shrugged. “I have a few toys. Some knives, some bats, some tasers– now those are my favorites” He walked over to a black duffel bag and pulled something. “He turned it on and even from across the room Maura could hear the electricity. Her breath hitched. She had no idea where she was, or how long she had been missing. Garrett turned and started to walk towards her. When he stopped right in front of her he smiled “Let’s begin shall we?”

* * * * *

Jane was frantic. Three days had passed and they still had no solid lead. She called the prison. Hoyt was still in jail. She just didn’t know. She couldn’t sleep. Couldn’t eat. And it was killing her to imagine what Maura was going through. Maura. Dammit, why didn’t she just work harder. Why did she ignore Maura. Jane paced, cursing herself for her stupidity.

“Jane!”

Jane snapped her head to the sound. It was Frost, running down the hallway carrying a folder. “Jane, we got a problem. I think I know who kidnapped the Doc.”

Jane snatched the folder from Frost. She opened it. “Garrett Fairfield was released from jail!” She yelled “Why wasn’t Maura told? Why weren’t we told?”

Frost shrugged.” I don’t know Jane”

“That’s not an answer Frost!”

“Hey, hey” Korsak interrupted. “I know your frustrated Jane but don’t take it out on us. We will find her”

“Frustrated!” Jane yelled’ “Frustrated is sitting in traffic, frustrating is not having the answer to a simple problem. I am beyond frustrated!” The tears fell faster than ever before. “I don’t know what I’ll do without her. I–I love her and now I may never see–” Jane covered her mouth. She couldn’t finish the words. She wanted so badly to give in to her pain but she couldn’t. Maura needed her and she would not let her down.

Before Korsak or Frost could respond Sumner Fairfield burst into the room “I heard. Maura is missing and I know who did it and I know where to find my brother.”

“Sit” Korsak said.

Sumner sat down in the chair next to Jane’s desk. “My brother got out 6 months ago. All he has talked about was Maura. At first we thought it was because he was still in love with her so I thought nothing of it. When he moved out the house about 3 months ago, I let him. He now has a cabin in the woods. The prison psychiatrist said he was ready to move on but he wasn’t. They didn’t tell us how bad he had gotten in prison. They didn’t tell me how long he was in isolation. Apparently he snapped a couple of times. Tried to strangle some nurses.” He looked up at Jane. “He strangled them because he thought they were Maura. According to him, she betrayed him and he wanted to make her pay.”

* * * * *

Jane drove. She drove faster than ever up to Garrett’s home. She stopped and parked her car down the road from the house. This was it. She was going in to get Maura and no one was going to stop her. Frost walked up beside her.

“Are you ready, Jane?’ he asked

Jane looked at him “Let’s go get her”

Slowly they advanced on the house. Jane reached the door first. Jane kicked it open. The house was dark and there were boxes everywhere.

“Looks like he never unpacked his stuff” Frost stated.

Jane nodded “because he was too busy preparing for Maura. Let’s checked the basement”

Face grim Jane walked through the house until she reached the kitchen.

“I see no entrance, Jane”

“It’s here Frost.” She looked around “Find it.”

They kept looking. Jane knew it was here. She had ot find it. She was too close to let Maura slip through her fingers. She was staring at a wall, in some part of the kitchen when she heard. A scream. And there was no doubt in her mind who that scream belonged to. She looked down. The scream came from underneath them she knew but where was the door?!

“Jane! Its here.” Frost had moved the kitchen table and was pulling up the vinyl. Underneath was a trap door. Jane bent and helped him open it. When the door gave way, Jane shined some light down into the dark hole. There was a ladder.

“Im going down first” Jane said.

Frost didn’t argue. When she got to the bottom she followed the tunnel all the way to a room. And there hanging in the middle was Maura.

“Shit” Frost said. Jane couldn’t help but agree. Maura looked destroyed. Jane’s anger only grew as her eyes took in every bruise and scar on Maura. There was blood sliding down her neck and blood sliding down her legs. Jane was livid. Then her gaze landed on Garrett. He was talking but her mind dint register it. All she saw was red as he shoved the taser into Maura’s open wound.

“Maura!”

Part 5

Maura was having trouble breathing and her head was swimming. She could barely see and she was sure she was slipping in and out of consciousness. She was sure he broke at least 3 ribs. She had taser marks all over her upper body and bite marks everywhere else. Her thighs were he pinned her down were aching. She wanted to die. He had violated her in more ways than one. He was gone. For right now. Her torso ached where the bat landed. She remembers when that happened. He had gotten so mad when she mentioned Jane he picked up the bat and swung in rage. She remembered her screams and how he laughed at them. The tears slowly streamed down her face. How long had she been there? How long was she going to be here? Where was Jane?

“Tears, Maura? “ the voice said. His voice. Garret.

Maura wanted to weep but she knew she had to hold it together. Jane would be here soon and then this would all be over. “Jane will be here soon, Garrett. You need to let me go.”

He chuckled “Oh she’s here already” and smile slowly spread across his face’” but you won’t get to see her”

Maura’s heart lifted then died. She was horrified at his expression “Don’t Garrett please. Don’t hurt Jane. She has nothing to do with this”

He slowly walked to her. “Jane this, Jane that. Is she really all you care about?” He pulled a scalpel out of his pocket. He ran it down her neck, pressing hard and drawing blood. Maura whimpered. She felt the blood, warm sliding down her neck.

“That was fun. Shall we try it again? Maybe you’ll scream this time” He pressed the scalpel into the left side of her stomach and yanked it across to the right. Maura’s body bucked and the scream tore from her throat.

He grabbed the taser and shoved it into her open wound. Maura screamed louder, tears streaming down her face.

“Maura!”

Maura cried out loud. Jane! She came. She came for her.

“Freeze you son of a bitch” Jane yelled.

Garret turned around facing Jane and blocking her view of Maura. Garret smiled. “Well done Jane. I knew you would come for her but you might already be too late.”

Jane snarled at him “Step away from her Garret!”

He laughed and shook his head. “You won’t shoot Jane. You won’t hurt her”

Frost was growing anxious. Jane could tell by his breathing. “Don’t do anything stupid Frost. We need him alive. And her too”

“Shoot him Jane” Maura whispered from behind Garret. “Kill him.”

Jane was debating on doing just hat but there was a possibility that Garrett would move at the last second and that would be a disaster. Jane would end up shooting Maura.

“Did I tell you to talk?!” Garrett yelled.

Jane had never seen anyone move so fast. Before she knew it, Garrett had thrust his arm back and buried the scalpel into Maura’s body. Maura screamed her name. Jane felt so useless. She couldn’t see her dammit!

“Doc, are you ok?” Frost yelled.

Maura whimpered. Garrett moved around the table behind Maura. Above her head was a hook hanging from the ceiling with handcuffs on it. Using Maura as a shield he transferred her from the table to the hook so she was dangling from the air. He kicked the table backwards, never moving from behind Maura, and pulled something out of his back pocket “Drop your weapons, pls?” Garrett asked.

Jane cocked her head “Or what?” She knew it was a risk, gambling with Maura’s life. Her friend’s body was swaying in the air in front of her. It took everything in Jane not to run to Maura or break down and cry. She needed to be strong.

Garrett showed Jane his hand. “ A taser. A fucking taser” Frost muttered. Garret shoved the taser in Maura’s back. Her body jerked and her mouth opened in a silent scream. Maura had no more fight left in her.

“Jane, she’s going into shock. If we don’t get her down she could die.” Frost whispered.

“I know that” Jane snapped. She had to get Garrett away from Maura before she could open fire on him.

“Maura you’ve lost too much blood ok? I’m going to shoot him. I’m going to fucking kill him for you Maura. Then I’ll come for you”

Jane didn’t need a response. She knew Maura believed her. Jane focused on Garrett.

“I never figured you for a wuss Garrett. Hiding behind Maura is pretty lame.”

Garrett was smiling. “Oh Jane, you can’t bait me”

“Really? Hmm I bet if Adam was still alive he would do this whole killing thing a lot smarter than you. You got caught dude. Twice. How lame is that?”

Jane heard sirens in the distance. Back up had finally arrived.

“Time is up for you Fairfield. Let the Doc go” Frost said

Garrett sneered from behind Maura. “She is mine’s and she will always be mine. I control her! “

“Garrett! She is mine!” Jane yelled, “There is no one who controls her. Only people who love her. I love her and you are going to die for ever touching her you sick bastard.”

Garrett laughed. Jane noticed that whenever Garrett talked he subconsciously moved a little from behind Maura and when he stopped talking he moved back. Jane decided to get him talking so she could shoot.

“How could you do this to Maura. I thought you loved her?”

“ I do that’s why im doing it.” He edged out some. “But she betrayed me. Even when we were back together she betrayed me”

Jane froze “You were back together?”

He laughed “You didn’t know. Oh believe me Detective, we were beginning our relationship over again.” He stared at Jane. “ Don’t you just love the way she is so meticulous with her work. Well in bed she is a lot better. Maura has always been good at sex” He ran his hands down her side, eyes on Jane. Maura winced. “But of course you wouldn’t know. Wouldn’t give her the chance, would you Jane?”

“Get out of my head!” Jane yelled. She couldn’t keep a handle on her anger. She was so mad her hands were shaking and she still didn’t have a clear shot.

Garrett laughed and inched out from behind Maura some more until she got a clear shot of his side. He was still talking. “ I especially loved the way she would use her hands. She always applied the right pressure and god her mouth was the most–“

Frost shot first and after Jane got over her initial shock, she followed. The force of the bullets pushed Garrett back to the wall. Jane rushed forward to Maura and Frost went to Garrett. He was still breathing.

Frost began wailing on him. Jane let him. At the moment she was more concerned with Maura. She wasn’t breathing and her pulse was weak. Jane gathered Maura close and began to shed all the tears she had been holding back since she stepped into the house.

“Korsak is here” Frost said. Jane couldn’t move. She had failed Maura. Let her down. The tears slid down her face and landed on Maura’s. The doctor was so pale and fragile. Jane didn’t notice that she had Maura’s blood all over her. She continued to hold Maura until the paramedics came to take her away.

Part 6

Jane paced. That’s all she could do. She hadn’t been home in three days and she wasn’t planning on going anywhere. She stopped pacing and went to resume her place by Maura’s bed. She couldn’t do anything but look. Maura was so pale. Breathing from a breathing tube. Her skin looked pasty. She didn’t look like the usual Maura. Fashionable Maura. Sensible Maura. Maura who was always smiling that quirky little smile. Jane felt the tears fall for the umpteenth time.

“Janie..”

Jane looked up and saw her mom in the doorway. “Ma, what are you doing here?”

Angela scoffed. “I’m here to see how you’re doing. You’re girlfriend is lying in a hospital bed and you haven’t been home in a week!”

Jane sighed “It’s only been three days Ma” She turned her attention back to Maura.

“I’ll stay with her Janie. You go freshen up at home. When she wakes she’ll need you.”

Jane shook her head. “ I love her Ma. I’m not leaving her like everyone else did. I’m not going to hurt her anymore. “ The tears fell faster. Her breath hitched “Oh god, Maura. Please wake up baby. I need you.” Jane caressed Maura’s forehead. ,” I need to see those eyes. The ones that hold everything we couldn’t say.” Jane laid her head on Maura’s forehead “Please. I love you Maura. It’s Jane. I want to spend forever with you, solving cases and coming home to Joe Friday and Bass. I need to see your eyes light up as you laugh. Or see you tilt your head when you’re thinking about something. Or hear you pronounce those ridiculous medical terms that sound so sexy when you say them. Or see your eyebrows crease when you’re confused. Or–”

Jane stopped. She saw it! “Ma, I think Maura is waking up. Ma go get a nurse”

Angela sputtered “Wha–? Oh” and went to find a nurse. When she came back she had a nurse, Frost, Frankie, and Korsak.

“I think she’s trying to breathe” Angela was saying.

Jane stepped back as the nurse went to Maura. She watched as the nurse checked Maura’s breathing. The nurse nodded. Slowly, she pulled the tube from Maura’s throat. When it was out the room held a collective silence. Silently they waited for Maura to take her first breath without the tube.

Jane saw her chest rise then fall. She ran to Maura’s side. “Maura, Maura..Maura sweetie open your eyes”

“Janie, just because she’s breathing doesn’t means he can hear you too. Let alone that she’ll wake up” Frankie stated.

Jane just ignored him.

* * * * *

The singing. It was the first thing she heard. She didn’t know the song but thought it sounded lovely. It was the last thing she heard before slipping back under. The second time she surfaced, she heard sobbing. It broke her heart to hear it and not know how to fix the pain. It hurt worse not knowing whose pain it was. I love you. She heard it the third time she surfaced. She didn’t know who would say that to her. Jane. Her heart soared. Jane loved her. She felt her body respond and her mind fully awaken. Slowly she mentally felt her body. She felt the tube down her throat and started to choke, then she felt it slide out and took her first breathe.

“Maura. Maura sweetie open your eyes”

There it was again. Jane. She knew that voice anywhere. Jane. Jane was where she wanted to be. She followed Jane’s voice from the darkness. Her eyes snapped open. The first thing she registered was the pain. She gasped. She felt someone gripping her face. Her eyes struggled to focus but when they did her joy knew no bounds. She tried to speak, to move but she couldn’t.

Jane was grinning and sobbing “Maura! Ma, she’s awake. Ma, she’s alive!”

Maura looked past Jane and saw Korsak, Frost, Frank, and Angela Rizzoli smiling with tears streaming down her eyes. “Janie go get her some water so she can speak”

Maura’s gaze returned to Jane.”Jane?” she croaked

Jane smiled “Yes baby I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. A pack of wild hogs couldn’t keep me from you now.”

Maura cocked her head. “Actually Jane they can. The correct term is wild boar or Sus scrofa and they can if they are surprised or attacked. You see, the males charge–&lsquo;

Maura never finished her sentence before Jane was kissing her. Jane pulled back and laughed “God how I’ve missed you”

Maura smiled “I’ve missed you to.”

Jane pulled Maura up and into a hug. Maura gasped from the pain.

“Jane! She has bruises” Angela rushed over with water. She held it for Maura to drink while shooing Jane away. Angela sat on the bed next to Maura, careful not to jar her. Angela placed her hand on Maura’s cheek.

“Don’t ever scare me like that again.” She said sternly

She was completely taken aback. There was no doubt to what Angela meant. Tears sprang to Maura’s eyes. No one had ever cared this much about her. “I won’t” she whispered. Angela smiled and left he room crying. Frankie followed her.

Maura turned to Jane. “You have a lovely voice”

Frost cleared his throat. “Actually that was all three of us.”

“Well an attempt anyway” Korsak joked

Maura laughed then gasped as pain shout through her upper chest. “Ok ok no laughing for me”

Jane came back to sit next to her. Jane took Maura’s hands in hers and opened her mouth to speak but Maura interrupted her.

&lsquo;I love you too Jane. Every time you’re sarcastic, when play with Joe, even when you tease me about Bas. I love you. And I’m sorry. Sorry for that guy in my office, I’m sorry for that letter, I’m sorry for trying to leave. I’m so sorry Jane” She felt the tears behind her eyes.

Jane shook her head “No no baby. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being such an ass to you. I should’ve told you how I felt. I shouldn’t have pushed you away like that.” Jane held Maura’s face in her hands “I will never leave you again.”

Maura smiled “Are you asking me to marry you?”

Jane laughed “Yes I am Dr Isles. Will you?”

“No one has ever wanted me like you have. Why are you asking me?”

Jane smiled “Because I want you. I want to wake up next to you every day.” Her face fell, “I almost lost you. I watched him torture you, scare you, try to break you, almost the same thing I was slowly doing to you. I hated myself for hurting you. If I hadn’t hurt you, he would’ve never gotten his hands on you.”

Maura saw the pain behind Jane’s eyes. “ You were the one I heard sobbing.” Jane nodded. “I want to never hurt you in that manner again. Smile for me”

Jane laughed “You’re a woman after my own heart.”

“As I recall, I already have it”

“So when are you guys getting married?” Frost asked

Jane turned to look at him “As soon as possible”

Korsak laughed “Doc when do you want to get married?”

Maura was confused “Korsak, I can’t marry you. I’m marrying Jane.”

The three cops burst out in laughter. Even thought she wasn’t sure what they were laughing at, it made Maura feel safe. And happy to know that her and Jane were finally together. And that everything was going to be alright.

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